hey blog

hey blog, i'm back as promised. how was the trip? amazingly fun! absolutely a perfect way for starting a fresh new year. lots and lots of stories to be told. but i don't think i'm going to write about it here. maybe just a couple of photos later after my friend upload it. anyway, remember the short list of action i wrote last december?

1. move out of this crappy signal place

2. pull up my grade

3. getting a short haircut

4. balancing HMTL and MBWG

5. gaining more self confidence

up until now, i'm proud to say all checked until point 4. unfortunately i still can't reach point number 5. well, it's not that i'm making any deadline for these little goals but instead of gaining i feel like losing more self confidence day by day. i started doubting my ability in everything. i don't feel beautiful, i'm not that smart, i'm not a kind-hearted person, i'm not sociable, i'm lack of creativity, i haven't done anything with my life, and i'm falling further behind everybody else. and i just can't point out anything good about myself. negativity, i know. maybe it's the risk of living with a bunch of amazing people. well, i hope this doesn't last long.

--v