31.12.11

hari terakhir 2011

hahay akhirnya sampai juga kita ke penghujung 2011. jadi tadi gue baru saja membaca ulang postingan selama setahun ini. dari sana dapat gue simpulkan kalau kira2 setengah tahun pertama 2011 gue masih banyak mengeluhkan hal yang sama di blog ini. masih belum bisa menyeimbangkan antara unit dan himpunan, krisis kepercayaan untuk orang lain dan diri sendiri, sedikit konflik kecil dgn teman, dan yah masalah yang paling klise, masalah move on.

sekarang? mungkin emang belum sepenuhnya bisa teratasi tapi overall gue merasa lebih baik kok. unit dan himpunan mulai bisa diseimbangkan dan gue sudah bisa merasa nyaman di kedua tempat. konflik pertemanan beres. drama percintaan? hmm gmn ya haha. belum sepenuhnya tapi sudah sangat membaik kok untuk move on-move on an ini dan biarpun masih pilih2 orang, tapi setidaknya gue udh lebih bisa percaya sama orang lain.

2011 taun yang cukup menyenangkan terutama karena ada kompetisi iombc guard contest. yang bikin ngga menyenangkan apalagi kalo bukan akademik semester 5 yang super gila tugasnya. hidup gue dihantui laporan tak berujung dan tugas mingguan yang suka ngga mikir banyaknya. ditambah lagi ada latian dies mbwg. tapi ya sekali lagi manajemen waktu itu skill wajib untuk anggota marching band.

hmm memori 2011 selain iombc dan dies adalah ulang taun gue ke 19. dapet 2 surprise dari anak2 TL dan MBWG dan 1 perayaan bareng KMWG (kelahiran mei waditra ganesha). ada juga liburan singkat keluarga ke bali, dan roadtrip ke ujung genteng bareng anak2 mbwg. taun ini entah kenapa kerasa lebih singkat. emang ngga seistimewa 2010 tapi bolehlah yaa.

resolusi 2012? gue masih mau ngelanjutin targetan peningkatan akademik dan penyeimbangan unit dan himpunan. urusan pacar belakangan aja, kalo dapet syukur kalo engga yaudah. single itu lebih enak kok haha. oh iya yang paling penting tema 2012 gue adalah "BRAIN, BEAUTY, BEHAVIOR" hahaha. idenya dibikin sm temen gue anak TL yang ngerasa cewek2 TL angkatan gue telah merusak image cewek TL sebagai kembang kampus ITB gara2 kelakuan kita yang terlalu asal2an. yah kalo dipikir-pikir emang bener juga sih. emang bukan resolusi yang serius tapi lumayan boleh dicoba. siapa tau bisa ikutan miss indonesia kalo tb2 gue jadi tinggi. amin. gini nih orang ngga pernah bikin resolusi, sekalinya bikin malah ngasal.

dan kerjaaan gue di penghujung taun adalah seharian bermalas-malasan di rumah. sungguh tidak produktif. tapi nanti malem bakal ada kumpul keluarga dan sodara2 yang ikut pasti yang ngga punya kerjaan macem gue ini. yasudahlah daripada nganggur. oke deh cukup sekian. sampai jumpa tahun depan! :)

--v



30.12.11

2 days to 2012

so this morning i've just booked tickets for our next trip to lombok yeay! the trip will be on early january and i'm super duper excited :D this was another impulsive plan that becomes real. yeah i'm glad i'm surrounded by those fun and impulsive friends. hm anyway,today in this last days of 2011 i will be taking my cat to veterinarian with my mom and my sister. well at least i still have a plan. but i kinda like my holiday so far.

i'm too lazy to write anything more serious than this post. okay tomorrow, i'll be writing about the classic new year resolution. or at least i'll keep writing until 2012 come whether its about the resolution or not. see ya later!

--v

29.12.11

3 days to 2012

i'm home for christmas and new year's holiday. during this holiday i've cut my hair short, met my high school friends, shopping on year end sale, and yesterday i played air soft gun with my college friends (this was the most random activity but it turned out incredibly fun!) then met my junior high girls. that was pretty much half things to do on my holiday list. and today since i don't have any plan my mom ask me to accompany my sister with her broken leg to watch her marching band practice. my holiday's been quite productive so far. but since now i don't have any more plan maybe tomorrow's gonna be those lifeless holiday. it's still 3 days to 2012 so i won't be doing the new year resolution post or the 2011 walk-trough post. maybe later. see ya tomorrow!

--v

10.12.11

love talk 2nd

it's been a while since the last real post about this topic. so i just met a friend who's still going through that hard post-breaking-up time. she cried and talk about how she miss him. we took her out to forget about everything and unexpectedly she met her ex there. and of course this ruined her night instantly.

and then i read my old post --> love talk which i wrote 3 years ago when i was in high school. those time when i haven't experience anything about love while everyone around me started having those relationship drama.

to be honest, it's confusing me, how that thing can effect so much on people behaviors. sometimes laugh, sometimes cry, sometimes angry, or else. but maybe that's the fun of loving. once again just 'maybe'.

well, i do want to fall in love, who doesn't? but i think it's not something to be rushed for. i'm enjoying myself right now, to not having such confusing thing like that. i'm happy enough to be a listener, it taught me a lot. it is fun to hear about their love life that i often smile just by listening

to read that post now, it's really funny because even when i have experience it once, i still feel the same way as before. confused. well, my first relationship didn't go that well either. it might be one of the reason i'm still confused.

falling in love is hard. i don't get those people who can fall in and out of love hundred times in a short period. that's suicidal. failing once is enough for making me a bit scared to put a big trust again to anyone. but at the same time it's fun to have someone to care for. the anxiety, the butterflies, the racing heartbeat, and many of those little things. miraculous and unexpected. just like the scene i wrote earlier about my friend. she said she miss him, but when she actually met him, she wish she didn't. isn't it confusing huh?

well love is one big never ending topic to talk about. i'm not really sure if i'm ready for another love experience or not. but like i once said before it's not something to be rushed for. just let the miracle speaks on his own. i know it's cliche but what can i do? haha

--v

9.12.11

less talk, do more... for real

okay with this post, i promise myself to actually DO this short list of action :

1. move out of this crappy signal place
2. pull up my grade
3. getting a short haircut
4. balancing HMTL and MBWG
5. gaining more self confidence

mission start!

--v


4.12.11

baru saja menasihati seseorang untuk sesekali melakukan apa yang ia mau, bukan melulu hanya demi menjaga apa yang sudah ada dan menyenangkan orang-orang di sekitarnya. nyatanya sampai sekarang diri sendiri pun belum bisa melakukannya. berbicara memang selalu lebih mudah. habis mau bagaimana lagi? untuk mengikuti keinginan sendiri pasti akan ada pihak yang dirugikan. atau mungkin pada dasarnya keinginan-keinginan itu adalah salah dan memang tidak seharusnya dipenuhi. pemikiran itu sudah saya tanamkan setiap hari. tapi keinginan untuk sesekali menjadi egois itu semakin lama semakin besar dan saya semakin merasa bersalah karenanya. mengapa saya tidak bisa tulus dalam menyenangkan orang lain? seharusnya kalau memang ingin tidak merugikan pihak lain, lakukanlah dengan ikhlas, bukan seperti ini caranya. atau sekalian saja jadi orang jahat, daripada munafik. ah, ya, saya memang munafik.

--v