love talk 2nd

it's been a while since the last real post about this topic. so i just met a friend who's still going through that hard post-breaking-up time. she cried and talk about how she miss him. we took her out to forget about everything and unexpectedly she met her ex there. and of course this ruined her night instantly.

and then i read my old post --> love talk which i wrote 3 years ago when i was in high school. those time when i haven't experience anything about love while everyone around me started having those relationship drama.

to be honest, it's confusing me, how that thing can effect so much on people behaviors. sometimes laugh, sometimes cry, sometimes angry, or else. but maybe that's the fun of loving. once again just 'maybe'.

well, i do want to fall in love, who doesn't? but i think it's not something to be rushed for. i'm enjoying myself right now, to not having such confusing thing like that. i'm happy enough to be a listener, it taught me a lot. it is fun to hear about their love life that i often smile just by listening

to read that post now, it's really funny because even when i have experience it once, i still feel the same way as before. confused. well, my first relationship didn't go that well either. it might be one of the reason i'm still confused.

falling in love is hard. i don't get those people who can fall in and out of love hundred times in a short period. that's suicidal. failing once is enough for making me a bit scared to put a big trust again to anyone. but at the same time it's fun to have someone to care for. the anxiety, the butterflies, the racing heartbeat, and many of those little things. miraculous and unexpected. just like the scene i wrote earlier about my friend. she said she miss him, but when she actually met him, she wish she didn't. isn't it confusing huh?

well love is one big never ending topic to talk about. i'm not really sure if i'm ready for another love experience or not. but like i once said before it's not something to be rushed for. just let the miracle speaks on his own. i know it's cliche but what can i do? haha

--v